Copyright 1994, 1998, 2003, 2009 Vast Music Lachrymose
So long ago, I set out to sea, forsaken by god and man
Visions of passion, glory and gold beckoned from distant lands
I left behind all I had known, aspiring to live, love, and conquer
Unaware that these futile pursuits would only yield a drifting sepulchre
Desperate
I have traversed
The seas of
Sorrow
Aimlessly drifting for many a year, cursing this fated endeavor
Hopeless, I accept that the solace I've sought will elude me forever
Straining against the maelstrom unbound, my limbs frailed and broken
Splintered apart after storm upon storm, my heart and hopes have sunken
Desolate
I have succumb
to the seas of
Sorrow
Tortured memories of sailing and searching, finding and failing
Eroding the will to further resist the waves violent churning
Bereft of strength I've lost hold of the dream now sinking in sorrow
Falling helpless to the waters raging below
For a fleeting moment I clutched the debris of my vessel now flotsam
a futile attempt of an overcome man to fend off the ocean
I know it is hopeless when I see the approach of the conquering wave
that has come to carry me to my watery grave
Washed ashore, succumb to the sea
the waves force upward my lifeless eyes
to watch the sun set for the last time
Only in death, would peace be mine
A million miles from everything the emptiness is everywhere
the lone and level sands stretch as far as I can see
Nothing but the hollowed eyes of skulls and ancient bones despair
remains of those who wandered this wasteland vast before me
Fatigue and famine render every step a tribulation
Beneath the blistering sun sabulous winds just a mockery
Lost within an infinity of dust and desolation
The vultures circling overhead await my lonely expiry
Maintaining this course to nowhere I have traveled so far
Far beyond the valley's carnage and death's silent repose
Compelled to journey onward by the calling of the morning star
Haunted by visions and voices, memories or madness providence only knows
I can't remember when or how I'd first lost my way
Thirsting even a tear of solace knowing naught will ever come
Siren celestial have mercy on me allow my flesh into dust decay
and carry my soul far beyond this damned and forsaken kingdom
I fell to my knees as the last trace of strength slowly faded away
with stone in throat I knew I'd never reach the hallowed and promised land
I conceded my carcass a vulture's feast, my soul eternal umbrae
Once a king, now nameless, forgotten, swallowed by the seas of sand
I gave myself
until there was
nothing left of me
Yet I never said
no when you
needed me
You never knew
or cared how
fragile I really was
I scream but you cannot hear me
So if you wonder
why I've vanished
to the hell of myself
Year after year I've
built these walls
and finally sealed myself inside
Without air
Without light
I close my eyes
You're screaming but I cannot hear you
Betrayed, abandoned
by those I loved the most
Stranded upon a desperate shore, afraid
that the sea could wash all of our dreams away
into it's everflowing infinity...
or do these tides hold for us sanctuary?
Tonight, will you sail away
with open arms and eyes ablaze?
Believe...in me...
With passion I've built this vessel for us to wander
these oceans that rage within each other
and though the waves, as if to resist, will arise
If we have faith, ne'er will we capsize
Tonight, will you sail away
with open arms and eyes ablaze?
Believe...in me...
Guided by our hearts aflame like the stars above
The journey to heaven begins with this deepest of loves
Have faith without fear, open your heart, breathe and believe
Together we'll find our peace somewhere across the seas
Tonight, we will sail away
with open hearts and eyes ablaze
Believe...in me...
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I set my heart out to sea,
hoping someday my love would return to me,
yet the years have passed like waves,
and I have fatigued with age,
in lachrymal oceans vast,
deserts of time have washed away
The passage of time implies progression,
yet I've become stone,
watching worlds dying,
negating the solace I've never known
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These empty years, in sadness repose
What once were joys now have become sorrows
I drank them all away
Once, I held hopes, loves, and dreams... now they've sunken into the sea
And I've no one left to save me from drowning eternally
I drank them all away
I drank myself away
Damned, I crawled valleys silenced with death
Through the seas of carnage, over mountains of regret
Reaching summits only to behold barren wastes endless
Just when I needed you the most
You had forsaken me
To this kingdom of ghosts
Bleak are the skies above this ruin
I've found no solace in cathedrals fallen
I am so far from the light and warmth of Heaven
To the hell of myself
Alone I am damned
To weep for you
Now, above this vast ruin alone I stand
All light and hope has fled my kingdom and land
Betrayed by bride and brethren, my heart burst in your hands
Forlorn empires
My kingdoms damned
Forlorn empires
I am damned
Lyrics by Klaus Hess and Tom Phillips
I hear your voice in the wind
Haunting me once again
Maybe our dream IS over
But, the sorrow never ends
I hear your voice in the wind
Haunting me once again
I knew someday, you would leave
And abandon me to forever grieve
Tearstained are the halls of my empty soul
Melancholia's haunting call is the only one I have known
Innocence has lead me into this void
While years eroded a youth I never enjoyed
Through childhood I slept unsheltered from the scorn
Now I've awakened with age to love ever lorn
Forever and ever I'll search for the solace
Which can only be found in an embrace
In throes of desolation I prayed unto divinity
I endured the emptiness and frigid pain but even god had forsaken me
I prayed to find a solace for my heart bereaved
Only to be forgotten by the god I once believed
Now I serve this punishment under the ice condemned
For my loss of faith to hell I was damned
Downfallen in iniquity, desolate I'll be
My somber stare traverses sepulchers lonely
Eternally, my limbs sealed in place
Livid, and dead I bow my face
The only shelter from the cold
Of the ninth circle of hell
To see what awaits in forever
A lifeless gaze, my final endeavor
I looked through the blackened skies
And beheld the radiance of paradise
My eyes have frozen in false sanctity
Eternally bound, my tears have turned to ice
Sunk into the corner
Where the forlorn drift to die
A broken man stares into his glass
With weeping eyes
Drinking away this empty life
I'm bleeding to death inside
Torn apart by bladed words
In sorrow capsized
I gave myself completely and deeply
But that was never enough for you
More alone than ever,
Your knives have finally pierced on through (my heart)
Drinking away this lonely life
I'm bleeding to death inside
Torn apart by bladed words
In sorrow capsized
Now, I know I will die alone
Cold and broken...
Now, I know Hell is my destiny
You took everything from me... everything...
I am the desolate one
Bleeding
You took everything from me... everything...
Drinking away this waste of life
I'm bleeding to death inside
Torn apart by bladed words
In sorrow capsized
I gave my heart up to your knives
I'm bleeding to death inside
Lyrics by Carl Michael Bellman
Mark how our shadow, Mark Movits mom frere
One small darkness encloses
How gold and purple that shovel there
To rags and rubbish disposes
Charon beckons from tumultuous waves
Then trice this ancient digger of graves
For thee ne'er grapeskin shall glister
Wherefore my Movits come help me to raise
A gravestone over our sister
Even desirous and modest abode
Under the sighing branches
Where time and death, a marriage forebode
Twixt beauty and ugliness ashes
To thee ne'er jealousy findeth her way
Nor happiness footstep, swift to stray
Flitteth amid these barrows
E'en enmity armed, as thous seest this day
Piously breaketh her arrow
The little bell echoes the great bells groan
Robed in the door the precentor
Noisome with quirsters prayerful moan
Blesses those, who enter
The way to this templed city of tombs
Climbs amid roses yellowing blooms
Fragments of mouldering biers
Till black-clad each mourner his station assumes
Bows there deeply in tears
Heaven weeps with my sorrow
Through the clouds a veil of black lace
An infinity of angels
Share the tearstreams I pour away
Within the storms of sadness
I'll eternally remain
Love is lost forever
You are mourned by this rain
Forever weeping
Tears fall from my somber stare
Abandoned and nobody cares
I watched you walk away
As if I were never there
You said you are not the only one in this world
Yet you are the only one I've ever loved
From my sole sanctuary exiled
And likewise heaven above
You have forsaken me
Sleepwalk to the gallows
To expel my hollow soul
Unto fire, unto cold
Into hell I must go
A broken heart, a broken wing, I'm falling
Into this pain deep within
Infinitely spiraling
To my sorrow-filled end
You have foredoomed me
When again these eyes you gaze into
You'll see I'm still reaching for you
How could you leave me here?
You have forsaken me
Ghostwinds draw forth the clouds
That will shroud me in black forever
Once again I stare into the night
Darkness binds my life and death together
The dark clouds a portrait of her
The black-cloaked face of death
Her empty eyes a hallway to heaven
But my sanctum is beyond unfathomed depths
I will never be at rest
Until the sun forever sets
A solemn walk through this maze of paled stones
Monuments to the ending of pain
Souls cry forth from eternal sanctum
Knowing only death remains
Now I stand before the altar
They call me from ethereal gates
I raise my head in dignity
Knowing only death is the absence of pain
The once beautiful flower has withered and gone
It is memory's charnel vast that I weepeth on
Lifeless, this lonely heart swoons 'neath my breast
For my tears bring you back not, from silent rest
Lamentations and woe, peace never shall I know
Blood less bitter be than these tears brackish with sorrow
Every promise ever born now lay broken
False words are better left asleep on thy lips than spoken
With autumn's dirge summer doth end
And dreams, like leaves, decay into the wind
Pallid as the breath on which they blow
Is my heart, buried 'neath a solemn pall of snow
This ice holds not sanctum, nor reason
For thy heart's swift change of season
With your dying, element and emotion unfold
And I, I live no longer in this cold
"Sadness, unlike love, is eternal"
He who lives twixt pain, pain and despair
Dwelleth 'neath the doom dark clouds forbear
Awaiting the fate's warning
I live this life in eternal mourning
My soul was born buried alive
And waits 'til my body 'neath the headstone lie
Live a death in midnight for ten thousand years
Each day sinking further into a sea of tears
Open the eternal gates of sanctum with my death
Sail into sleep, never awaken again
He who in darkness dwell
Shall find eternal rest, heaven through hell
Aging branches
Reach for the warmth of life
Fleeting from the cerement of ice
So brittle they'd break
'Neath the ashes of autumn
Weak with the weight of eternal tears
A call to the sea to cleanse my soul of ill
Of hate and depression be freed, my fate, thus fulfilled
Summon me forth, the susurration of the blackest tides
No longer the shores of emptiness shall I tread infinitely inside
Frigid mournful winds traverse the chasms of my soul
Awaiting sweet death, I will again be whole
Tumultuous waters extract me from this mortality to which I'm bound
Evolved from the body, useless time expired, futile life drowned